August 24, 2015

  • I Am Back

    Yeah!

    I got back earlier than my schedule. Got terribly sick while I was in India, and decided that I would rather die at home in my bed, than in a different country. Ironic, no? My beautiful  country India, where I was born, and brought up and the land that I love.... but when you are sick, the smallest town in the good old USA has far superior health care than a big city there. At least I think so. Didn't really go to any hospital there, but all I kept thinking was that I needed to get back. So I came home on the 20th instead of on the 25th. My regret.... that I didn't get to go to Bombay to see my childhood friend. That will be a thorn in my heart for the rest of my life.

    The flight out of Chicago O'Hare on Qatar Airlines was very good. I had a very comfortable seat. The meals were fabulous in taste and presentation. The first course was wild mushroom soup, which was excellent. I was served a basket of wonderful bread along with it.  For drinks I had fresh squeezed orange juice which was very good.

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    The next course was salad. Fresh and succulent greens with cheese.

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    Next came the Shrimps and pasta. Very well prepared and I polished the plate. The dessert was a variety of petit fours, and I was a cat with a big smile. I have to apologize for the quality of these pictures. Some people were already sleeping, and I didn't want to use the flash. So excuse the darkness of the photos. After the dinner I wanted to sleep. The steward helped make the bad for me, stretching sheets on the pulled out seat. Not sure if you can see this particular picture. I thought it was funny, because the seat belts on it, looked like I would be lying on that bed and someone would be ready with a lethal injection to push in my veins!! heh heh!IMG_5089
    In Doha, Qatar, we had to change our flight. The lounge at the airport was massive, with two levels of restaurants. They had Arabian, Indian and American cuisine all along the walls for us to serve from huge serving dishes. The place was immaculately clean and I heard so many languages there. All passengers from different airlines (mainly Qatar Airlines) hurrying up with some food and running on to catch the next flight. On my way there, I met a beautiful young lady from Dammam Saudi Arabia. She had sat next to me on the plane and we had talked for hours before sleeping. She works in Oklahoma City, and was going home for a holiday. She took a picture of me at the lounge.
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    My flight from Doha to India was eventful. I got sick on the way there. They served wonderful meals again, but there was one dish of shrimps (I love shrimps), that was VERY spicy. It was hotter than HELL! I had half of one shrimp, and I knew I had invited trouble. The involuntary muscles of my stomach and intestine just cramped and I was in great pain. I couldn't wait to reach Chennai, India.
    Any way, we reached India about 3 am, and I got out of the airport by four. The car was waiting for me. I went to the room and crashed.
    While I gradually started feeling better over the week, I was constantly in discomfort with contracting spams and colitis. Not a fun time.
    I will post more of the journey with pictures in a day or two. By the way, since I have been home, I have been feeling much better. Every day I seem to have improved more.

     

     

     

August 8, 2015

  • Friday Fiction # 2.

     Apparently the forum is an open one, and we could write whatever we want.  So I write about what is closest to me.

    The Soul, The Heart, The River!

    I lie in my bed and stay awake, wondering about the culture that I grew up in and which I am unable to shrug. All around me I hear superficial and fake talk and wonder how people don’t mind not covering their falsehoods with apologies or the semblance of shame. I lie awake and wonder about the culture I live in now. I sometimes wonder a...bout my loneliness… not just being alone in a different world, but the real gnawing feeling of loneliness.

    Did my culture teach me all the wrong things? I examine my soul. It doesn’t have a culture. It just sits there like a petulant child in a class room, full of talented and gifted kids. My soul has no nation, I think all souls have no nations, no color, and no race. My soul has no accent of Urdu or English or Mexican or French. But my soul is turbulent. It recognizes truth and falsehoods, and it distinguishes sorrow from joy. And in my heart when this turbulence occurs, my soul cannot find peace.

    It’s like the river. It runs through me. Perhaps there is a river that runs through all of us regardless of where we come from, or where we are going. It is my soul, it is the river of my heart, and the desire of this aging heart.

    All peoples of all nations, should open their hearts and listen to the whispers of their souls, and differentiate the right from wrong, and truth from politics!

    Zakiah Sayeed. August 7th 2015.

August 7, 2015

  • Homeward Bound

    I am DEIGHTED to report, that I am ALL PACKED and ready to leave for India on Sunday. Some of you know how much I hate packing. But I got that done. So here I am, ready and excited to go.

    My land, my town, my streets, my traffic and pollution, all, that I love. But I also love the fragrance of the flowers, the sweetness of the tropical fruits, the blinding smiles of the people, the honest and sincere hospitality of people I meet,  the warble of the birds in the mango trees.... all this I love, and I am going to embrace it.

    See you all with some photos when I return end of the month.

    Ciao.

August 1, 2015

  • Friday Fiction on facebook

    Some of us from xanga, have started writing on facebook. The prompts are given by another xangan, and whoever is interested, and is a member of the group, can write, and post it on facebook.
    Today's prompt was key/keys with bonus for light and dark, portals and time.  This was my entry today. I will post it on WordPress also. I really like this platform, where I can write and feel comfortable.  (ZSA)

     

     She saw Raju again yesterday, drawing water from the well near the rice fields. His brown skin shining with sweat, and the muscles rippling as he pulled the bucket of water from the depth of the well. Just as he was splashing the water on his face he had looked up, and seen her. For just an instant he smiled, or did he? He had to have smiled, why else did her heart lurch in her chest?

     

    She closed her eyes, and tried to visualize that moment. Bright and blinding sunlight was playing hide and seek between the broad leaves of the Banyan tree, tiny points of warmth all along her face, and suddenly the smile was gone, before she could realize that he had smiled at her.

     

    They grew up in the same area, and played in the courtyard of her home; she, her brothers and all the kids from the village. But as the time of childhood turned into that of a more reserved and untouchable factor between the daughter of the homestead and the domestic help, she found herself wanting to be by his side. She wanted him to search for her in the different corners of the garden where light and dark shadows filtered through the eaves, just like he had done when they were little kids.

     

    But she grew up. More quickly than he did. She was made to wear saris, and not step out of the grand portals of the mansion. He had come several times to the gates and called for her, but his father, the gardener, had sent him away to the fields, to work along with other young boys. And just like that he got busy with the life in the village across the canal and the fields, and came over to the mansion only on days of festivals, or if there was a dance celebrating the harvest season. She would sit with her brothers and parents and watch the dances of the servants and the field workers….throwing color at each other, some old Bollywood music playing on the old gramophone. She wanted to get up and dance with him. Her feet would tap on the ground, the tiny silver bells in her anklets keeping time, her hands gripping the sides of her chair, ready to spring up. But the stern looks from her parents made sure that she melted into the rattan of the seat.

     

    One night she heard her father talking to her mother. “We should get her hitched. Then we can send her away to the city, where she can live like a lady of the house, and not be like a horny tramp, ogling at young men.”

     

    “Oh don’t say that! She loves this village. She has spent her childhood in these portals, and time writes everything. She knows these men and women of her childhood,” mother said. “She will be heartbroken if she is sent away. You think she will survive in a city?” Her mother tried to defend her.

     

    “Cities depend on the villages. Without our rice and wheat and tamarind and lentils, they are nothing. Our cotton builds their strength.  Our villages hold the keys to the cities! She will get used to the city life and forget all about the village. I do not care for the way she looks at Raju.”

     

    Her father the land lord, had spoken. The line was drawn in the sand. She couldn’t cross it, even though she knew that she would feel like a princess if only she could cross the canal and the rice fields and go live in Raju’s hut in his village.

     

    Copy right: Zakiah Sayeed.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

July 26, 2015

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July 20, 2015

  • Many Thanks

    Very grateful to all of you who have come and offered words of comfort and care about the sudden storms that we've had. If only it would stop raining for a full week or two. I think the ground needs to become drier and not have as much moisture as it does now. We had more storms last night and the thunder kept us awake. I am sure all Quincyans were hoping and praying that they didn't lose power again! More storms are called for tonight and tomorrow. Those rains, they just keep on coming! Wish they would go to California or Washington where they are needed!

    Ciao.

July 12, 2015

  • When You Walked Away

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     When you walked away, nothing else happened.
    The sky didn’t fall, the mountains didn’t crumble
    the world didn’t stop existing and,
    I did not die.

    When you walked away, I stayed silent
    my respect for my heart reduced, my reliance
    on that organ in my chest, faded
    and I felt betrayed. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  n in the past, I could trace your footsteps
    step by step, on the surface of that same heart.
    I knew that they had left footprints there.
    They are gone now.

    I noticed that my heart had betrayed me
    it had washed itself clean of your footprints
    when you walked away, nothing else happened
    except that my faith in my heart was gone.

    It had betrayed me!

    ZSA July 2015